I dont wanna die pretty

I don't want to be beautiful, pretty, cute, hott, sexy, gorgeous, stunning, adorable, ageless, timeless, I don't want to be any of it.

Winter becomes me

I love winter, I love the cold air, it is forever cleansing, confronting, asserting, pushing, revealing, romantically depressing.

I want to live in Vermont, Maine, Canada. '

Goodbye skinny love

I paid you to be mine, you never needed to ask for anything because I was always giving it to you.

Your eyes always told our story, our lungs kept in all the details, in our cars we were always screaming the lyrics to saves the day songs, in our cars we were always screaming or crying or fucking. Their were late liquored down nights, crashing on friends couches, you would creep into their houses, you would sneak into the room I was sleeping in and steal my affection. I'd lay my swampy head down and wake up in your arms, spend a whole morning indulging in an illusion of love, you were always stealing my mornings, you were always stealing me away.

You were always hungry, you were never eating. You were always asking for food, but all you would do is pick at it with your fork. You had a plate of chicken and rice, you made a face. You were always asking for a drink but all you would do is smell the flavor. You would work a room, you would work it all night, with just one smelly glass. You were always hungry for me, you were always thirsty, you were never really with me.

You were always showing up and never staying.

I did not need to say goodbye because you were never really here.

Good luck in Colorado.

what might have been lost dont bother me

Shepard from my dark nights, you were a bright light.
Angel sent from the terror of my brain, you were a gift.
"I begged God to have another chance with you"

"Were you on your knees?" I wanted to get the picture right. Was he burying his face in his hands, weeping hysterically, body pressed against his ash stained carpet screaming out to some empathetic force? Or was he lying on his couch, exhaling a foolish plea, "I need her to save me, please give me another chance."

"Are you begging now or are you too ashamed?"

"I can't go down the same path again" His answer.

"Well you're heading in the same direction by even calling me"

I am in a dark tunnel
you, the opening, the liberation from the pain that has hardened inside of my head
I am nothing without your help

"You have confused me with the sanity that exists inside of you, you have confused me with God."

"No, no, no, no, no. Its just that I know how to be clean with you. It is a lot easier to be clean with you, its just that we need to be together, you need me too. You need me too."

You? A hell sent fallen angel to me.
You? A serpent lover
You? A locust invasion in my beautiful world.

"Their isnt much left to say between the two of us, it is time to say goodbye, goodbye."

"No, no, no, no. KELLY, no."